Postby Guest » Thu Mar 13, 2003 5:01 am
Mhmmm, you really whanna make me think...
Do I train for fighting? nope
Do I train for sparring? Mhmm, not for the "score"
I started because I like swords, but what is that I seek going on?
I think it's positive sensations, some activities give them, others don't, I mean: do you like when you are concentrated and manage to keep your mind free from strategy and conscious attempts to win and just act, or better, actions get out from you in accordance to your training, without your conscious ego getting in the way? I seek this, in sword practice as in rifle shooting, pistol shooting gave me this sensation when I was 16, than it did no more and I stopped competeing with pistols, I lost an important match and realized I competed only with the intention to get medals.
But this sensation, in sword practice, comes only when I'm sparring, I enjoy parrying as much as I enjoy hitting, again: I do not train for the score. In this sense sparring is the realization of the training.
I really do not feel like I'm preparing for war, but I do not feel like I'm preparing for a soccer match either.
Sparing with swords gives me this sensation, Aikido gave me this sensation in the past, Karate never did and I quitted soon, competing with pistols gave me this sensation,it doesn't now, rifle competition does at times, but those times are worth an year of training for the sensation of the ego being relegated in a closet is very strong.
I never practiced the activities that gave me the said sensation with the idea I was preparing to fight, yet all of them have to do with weapons.
I'm practicing a sport? I do not know.